Friday, October 28, 2011


Definition of the word "patience": the capacity to accept or tolerate delay, trouble, or suffering without getting angry or upset.

Some people may automatically think that they have patience, perhaps more than the next person (I know I thought this about myself for a long time).  But when we really stop and actually think about it, what a big meaning the word "patience" has.

I honestly never thought that I would go through a trial where it seemed to be that the main lesson of the whole thing was to gain patience.  I would never have expected it, but there it was, knocking on my door.  And by answering that knock, I let that tribulation get a strong hold on my self, my heart, and most definitely on my mind.  But we are to "glory in tribulations", are we not?

Going through this trial I recognize that patience is something I am going to need dearly.  I know I'll need a lot of it for a long time.  And I recognize also that there is only one way I can obtain it: through continuous prayer.

I suppose I'm naturally a stubborn girl, (and I also suppose that's not really going to shock anybody).  Patience isn't my strong point.  The Bible says "...tribulation worketh patience..."  I can only pray that during this trial period, my stubborn nature won't rebel and toss what little patience I have or gain out the window.

But you know what?  God is Lord, and He is good in all things.  In all things.  What he does for His own children really is what is best for them, whether they know it or not, whether they accept it or not, whether they're willing to wait and be patient for an answer or not.  And the only thing we, as children, can do about it is pray for the right attitude.

I actually know some people who absolutely will not pray for patience because they know that with patience comes tribulations.   This baffles me greatly.  I understand the not wanting tribulation part, but the end result is a fruit of the spirit: "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering [patience], gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance..."  I suppose I know what I'm asking for when I pray for patience, but the end result is a blessed sweetness that enables us more fully to trust in the God of our salvation.

God give me the faith to say, Thy will be done.  As I said in an earlier post, we, as man, are sinful even in our righteousnesses; so we ought only to seek the will of the Father, and not what our own wretched selves want, even if we want it really bad.  May God grant me the patience I absolutely know I will need to emerge from this trial a victor.

"By whom also we have access by faith into this grace wherein we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God.  And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience;  And patience, experience; and experience, hope..."  -Romans 5:2-4

Blessed be God the Father, Who giveth me trials and tribulations to endure.

Pray for patience.  It's the only way we'll ever get it.

Friday, October 21, 2011

I Almost Pulled My Eye Out!

Ok, so it wasn't that extreme.  However, I did almost pull the cornea out of my eye.  Tuesday morning was just like any other morning: I woke up, studied, did my hair, put my contacts in, ate breakfast.  It around 10 a.m. that I realized that one of my contact lenses wasn't working.  I thought that maybe I had put it in backwards, but still, I should still be able to see ok.  I'd put the lenses in backwards a few times before and nothing happened, so...But anyway, I decided to take out the lens that wasn't working and flip it around just to be sure that wasn't the problem.  Only, the real problem was I couldn't get it out! 

What was going on?  My contact lenses had stuck in my eyes a few times before and it was difficult to take them out again, but not like this at all!  I couldn't even get my finger-nail underneath the lens.   So, I decided to wait a little bit and try to take it out again later.  When I had tried 3 times, I decided I should probably call the doctor to help me get it out.

Now, I did not want to call the doctor.  If he got it out right away, I'd feel, well, pretty dumb for not being able to do it myself.  But I called the doctor anyway and asked if there was a trick to getting a stuck contact lens out.  The lady I talked to gave me a tip.  I hung up and tried what she said.  I didn't get any farther.  So, I called back and scheduled an appointment.

Mom told me that I should try one more time to take out the ornery lens 5 minutes before I had to leave.  So at 10:55, I went downstairs (to my room), got in front of a mirror and tried again.  This time I actually got a finger-nail under it!  So, I grabbed it with 2 finger-nails (they were longer than I usually let them grow) and pulled gently.  But I tell you, it felt like I was ripping my eye out!  I couldn't understand it!

So, I went upstairs and asked Dad to watch and see if he could tell if I was grabbing  the lens.  He said it looked like I had it, so I told him "But it feels like I'm pulling my eye out."  "Ok, lets go to the doctor," he said without any hesitation, and boy am I glad he did!

At the doctor's office I felt even dumber when he said that I was actually pulling on my cornea, that I didn't have a lens in my eye at all!  That explains why that lens wasn't working.  So, yes, I really did pull up part of my cornea!  *Creepy* 

The doctor told me what kind of ointment to get, then and we went home and told everyone that I had tried to pull my eye out.  It sent chills up everyones' spines, especially when Dad said that when he saw that it looked like I had the lens, he thought about telling me to just pull it and get it out of my eye.  That would not have been good.  So it's a very good thing indeed that I said that it felt like I was ripping my eye out!

Last night was the third night of putting the ointment in, and my eye is much better.  But every time I think about what I almost did, I cringe.  Who knows, I could have gone blind!  But God, in His mercy, prevented me, and I thank Him so much!

Monday, October 10, 2011

May God's Will Be Done

Sometimes the Lord intervenes and does the direct opposite of what we wanted done.  When this happens, some may think, "The nerve!  He has no right to intervene in my personal life, especially when I really wanted something, and He didn't give it to me."  But how can we possibly say such things so dishonoring to God the Father?  We may want something, yes; but we should always ask the Lord's will to be done in our life.  And when He does step in and His will is done, we ought not to oppose it.

Think about it this way: if we, man, being so wholly depraved that even our goodnesses are sinful, how can we deliberately blame God, in Whom is no sin found and is completely righteous and is always good, for stepping into our lives and pointing us in the direction that He wants us to go?

It is sad to think about how many times we've blamed God for being in our way, when in fact, He was doing something good for us!  Some may say, "Well, I don't need God's help.  It's my life and I can do whatsoever I please with it!"  My friend, be very careful of what you wish for.  Thinking in such a way will only lead you farther and farther away from the Savior, and that is a truly dark place to be, where no light is found.

'If we would be saved form the destruction which is coming upon the World, we must submit ourselves without reserve to the commands of our Lord Jesus.  We shall not be saved for keeping the commands of God, but if we have true faith we shall prove it by following the Lord's directions.'  That is a quote from Spurgeon.  The Father looks after His children, but if we refuse to heed to His judgment, He may allow us to be led into temptation.  And once there, it is not an easy task to humble ourselves and ask forgiveness of the Lord.

God's Word says in Psalms 119:9: "Wherewithal shall a young man cleanse his way?  by taking heed thereto according to thy word."

Give heed to the Lord of hosts, and let not the feelings of this sinful flesh get in the way of serving the God of heaven.

Friday, October 7, 2011

The Fifth Commandment

"Honour thy father and thy mother: that thy days may be long upon the land which the Lord thy God giveth thee."
                                                                                       ~Exodus 20:12

That's what the Bible says, God's Word.  And God's Word is not to be taken lightly.  As we see what would happen to a child that does not honour his parents in Deuteronomy 21:18-21, which reads: "If a man have a stubborn and rebellious son, which will not obey the voice of his father, or the voice of his mother, and that, when they have chastened him, will not hearken unto them:  Then shall his father and his mother lay hold on him, and bring him out unto to the elders of  his city, and unto the gate of his place;  And they shall say unto the elders of his city, This our son is stubborn and rebellious, he will not obey our voice; he is a glutton, and a drunkard.  And all the men of his city shall stone him with stones, that he die: so shalt thou put evil away from among you; and all Israel shall hear, and fear."

Jeremiah 17:10 says: "I the Lord search the heart, I try the reins, even to give every man according to his ways, and according to the fruit of his doings."  We should obey our parents with a cheerful heart.  We shouldn't obey them grudgingly, with the attitude, 'Well, I'll do it, but only because I'll get in trouble if I don't.  As I said a moment ago, the Lord searches the heart.  Even if Mom and Dad don't know what we're thinking or feeling, God does.  And He will reward us according to our doings.

Parents only look after their children.  They usually know best.  If they tell you not to hang out with certain group of people, and you decide to dishonour them by disobeying and you hang out with those people, and they turn out to be a murderous gang, turn around and kill you - what then?  It's too late to go back home, say sorry to you parents and start trusting them.  Or if they say, 'Look both ways before you cross the street,' and you deliberately rebel, look straight ahead while crossing, and get hit by a car, what then?  "Honour thy father and thy mother: that thy days may be long upon the land which the Lord thy God giveth thee."

"Correct thy son, and he shall give thee rest; yea, he shall give delight unto thy soul."  -Proverbs 29:17  It seems that the children who are disciplined by their parents are more honouring, respectful, and obeying to their parents.  But today, the parents who actually discipline their children seem to be in the minority.  But even if some children are not disciplined by their parents, the Bible still says, "Honour thy father and thy mother..." and it ought to be obeyed.